Monday, September 16, 2019

Good Girl

This next poem was written during our second year of DD. I was pregnant, hence the sappiness of it. J was working long hours towards the end of my pregnancy, to meet the needs of our growing family and I was feeling overwhelmed without him so much of the time, trying to keep up with everything in the home, as I was no longer working due to some physical complications I was having. 

I think this poem shows our growth into DD. We had moved on from that honeymoon period that is so exciting at the beginning towards acceptance of who we were as a couple. The distance and fears I had are portrayed here- an example of how difficult it is when there is a prolonged distance in a relationship where the couple has become this close. 







Good Girl

Eyes brimming with tears, 
All I ever seem to do now is cry.
And I don't want to burden you with my fears, 
So I will try,
To put on a brave face and keep up with our lives,
But these feelings keep overwhelming me each waking day and at night.

I'll try, I'll try, to be a good girl for you,
Bring you your coffee, kneel by your feet,
All I can do.
I'll try to be happy to make it easy for you,
To leave me here and do what you have to.

Walking through my days, I feel so alone,
Fighting the urge to call you on the phone,
There are so many feelings I don't know how to express,
And I just have to wait for you and hope you'll notice.

I'll try, Daddy, I'll try, to be a good girl for you,
Take care of our babies, keep under control, all I can do.
I'll try to seem happy to make it easy for you,
To leave me here to do what you have to.

Please don't be angry if I mess up sometimes,
The last thing I want to cause is hurt in our lives,
I'll do my best to hold up this side of our lives,
But these feelings still overwhelm me...

I'll try, my love, I'll try, to be a good girl for you, 
Welcome you home, help you unwind, 
All I can do.
I'll take what you give me to make it easy for you,
To return to me here and love me like you do.


3 comments:

  1. Hi Jlynne, wow,very powerful, heartfelt and beautiful. Your poetry is amazing, you have such a wonderful talent. Thank you for sharing this with us.

    Hugs
    Roz

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